Class is over.
I wish I could say “yay, I’m graduating tomorrow!” But everything that could go wrong yesterday (when my final paper was due) did. And I mean, yeah, I got the paper turned in. But I know by now to listen to omens when they’re that overwhelming. (Seriously, I was crying on my drive home. It was that bad.) And those omens were saying “you are an idiot if you think you’re graduating.”
So, rather than getting a diploma mailed to me in a few weeks, I think I’m going to get a letter saying “oooh, no, sorry, you counted your credits wrong! We could have told you before, but we didn’t, because lolz.”
Okay, yeah, a university would never send a letter that said “lolz,” but you get the idea.
It might not even be that I counted my credits wrong. What if some jerk pulled my paper out from under the professor’s door and threw it away, just because they thought that’d be a funny prank? (Yes, the professor actually asked us to just stick the papers under the door to his office. It’s pretty typical of him.) Imagine failing your final class because some passing creep decided to have a laugh at the expense of hard-working students!
Anyway, doesn’t matter.
Even if — when — the inevitable letter comes to say I didn’t really graduate after all, I’m done with school. I can’t handle another semester. I’m not smart enough. I was a fool to think I ever had the brains to try getting a Master’s Degree in the first place.
So, now that I’m free from my student responsibilities for good — one way or the other — I’m going to get back to blogging again. I’ve been looking over this year’s Read Harder list, and I’ve already met four of the challenges, so I’ll post about those in the next few days.
Other than that, I also want to post my final paper. Not until I’ve heard back from the school, of course! (I don’t know how plagiarism checkers work, but if they scan the internet as well as published works, then I could get accused of “plagiarizing” myself.) It’s not a great paper, but I got a lot of really interesting material, stuff people don’t tend to know about. If I ever lose my job and win the lottery (lol, like I could win the lottery, especially when I don’t usually even enter it), I think going to England to cull and publish a lot of the primary documents that I didn’t have available for this paper would be a great use of my time.
Posting the paper will probably be three or four posts (it was 27 pages long), and hopefully by then I’ll have figured out how I want to keep going with this blog. I mean, I know I want to keep posting reports on the books I read for Read Harder (and noteworthy ones that aren’t for Read Harder), but I’m not sure what my “usual” posts will be.
I need to get back in the habit of writing — I definitely plan on taking part in July’s Camp NaNo session — so I may post about that process, and/or post some of the results.
Other than that…I dunno. I’ll see if I get a new rhythm going, or if the blog just becomes “random eclectica.”
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