Velvet Goldmine

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More of the same, but also kind of not.

Published July 29, 2020 by Iphis of Scyros

So, yesterday, I ended up writing an out-of-the-blue story rather spontaneously.

Today, on the other hand, I ended up writing a variation on something I’ve been wanting to write for months. (Well, starting it, anyway.) Though I still want to write the original version, too.

As you might guess, what I ended up working on today instead of more world-building was more Velvet Goldmine fanfiction. Since pretty early in the COVID shutdown, I’ve been wanting to write a story of a similar quarantine situation for my OTP, with a fictional pandemic probably more closely related to the “Spanish” flu of the 1918 pandemic, since there wasn’t any pandemic in the 1980s that I recall!

This morning, though, I suddenly remembered a series of fanfics that I wrote earlier that brought the characters all the way up to 2016. So if I made it another entry in that series, then I could just have them actually in the current COVID shutdown. (Though I don’t know if perhaps it would be tasteless to post it until years from now when the world has been able to heal a bit.)

Problem is, I still want to do the other version, even after I finish up this one!

Because there are some really huge differences. In the one I’ve already started, early 1970s rock legend Curt Wild, now in his own early 70s, starts livestreaming performances of his music in the recording booth in his house, with his husband manning the control panel, handling the comments from the audience, etc. In the version I originally thought of, early ’70s rock legend Curt Wild, in his late 30s, gets his hands on some radio equipment and starts sending out a pirate radio broadcast (ever see Pump Up the Volume?) of his and some of his friends’ music, both in recordings and performed live by him, and making speeches to his fellow New Yorkers reminding them that they’re not alone, all with his fairly new boyfriend manning the tech side of things.

It’s a very different dynamic, in terms of the leads’ relationship to each other, in how much his message would mean to the people, and in how easily the record label would be able to contact him and/or take advantage of the situation. (Not to mention that a fictional, slightly dystopian 1984 is very different from 2020 because…um…because 2020 is actually worse than that dystopia? Ugh. Can I please have a time machine and a guide to rewriting history?)

Anyway, I haven’t decided if I want to write the other version as well, or if it would be entirely wrong to post either one. (Obviously, I’d have to finish writing one or both before that could even be an issue!)


Today’s time: 2 hours! ūüėÄ

Time in July to date: 30:00:24.36

I was going to write a review, but…

Published July 28, 2020 by Iphis of Scyros

…whenever I try to write a review, it ends up feeling sloppy and uneven.

The review would have been for the Netflix show¬†Hollywood, btw.¬† It’s entertaining, but leads to levels of tolerance that only came up in the late ’60s and early ’90s.¬† In other words, it starts its own alternate history that would have led to a much better world than the one we live in now.¬† (Also, I have to wonder if Rock Hudson’s estate signed off on it in any way, because their fictional version of him is dumb as a post.¬† Very sweet, but astonishingly, impossibly stupid.¬† Like you can see gears turning every time he has to try to think about anything.)¬† Still, it’s well worth a watch as a pleasant historical AU.

Right, so, actual post.

I did manage to get some writing done today, because I woke up with a story idea.¬† It’s just another Velvet Goldmine fanfic, but it’s a short, stand-alone piece I was able to write in one sitting, which is a refreshing change of pace.¬† And it’s a different angle on the characters than I usually have.¬† Famously (within the fandom, anyway), back in 2015, someone on Twitter asked Ewan McGregor if he thought his character and Christian Bale’s character would get together after the movie ended, and he not only said (what she obviously wanted to hear) that they would, but even gave some details on the kind of life he thought they’d have together, including that they have kids.¬† That obviously led to a lot of fanfiction exploring the idea of them as parents, typically by way of adoption (sometimes of nieces and nephews), though sometimes (including in one I wrote) there’s a kid from a one-night stand or brief relationship, too.

Well, this time, I gave Curt (Ewan’s character) two kids by a very different and much more traditional method:¬† I gave him an ex-wife he’d been married to for a few years, and just had her show up at his apartment because he had custody that weekend and he’d forgotten about it.¬† It made for a very different dynamic, both regarding his interactions with the children, and their reaction to a strange man being in his bed when they arrive.

It’s not great art — it’s not even particularly good in comparison to my usual work — and it won’t exactly set AO3 on fire whenever I ultimately post it, but I don’t think it’s especially bad, certainly no worse than my usual work.

And hey, at least I was writing!

Sure, my world-building is no more complete than before, but…something is better than nothing, surely.


Time today:  1:39

Time in July to date:  28:00:22.45

IWSG – Everyone’s Talking About It…

Published April 1, 2020 by Iphis of Scyros

…and probably for a lot of writers (who don’t have children to deal with) it’s been beneficial, being forced to stay in the house all day, giving so much extra time to write.

I feel like I’m actually spending a lot¬†less time writing since my area went into lockdown.¬† ¬† Partially that’s due to lack of momentum on my current project, but it’s also partially because one of my chief writing times was in the morning before going to work.¬† I always set my alarm for 6:00, but I don’t have to get ready to go until 8:30, so I have lots of time to wake my brain up, which I usually do by writing.

Only now I don’t have that time, because no way I’m getting up at 6:00 when I don’t have to.¬† Admittedly, I’m actually one of the lucky ones whose job is considered at least partially essential, so I’m still going in to work a bit; for the first week of the lockdown, I had hours as normal, and this week I’ll be working one day, and next week as well.¬† Dunno about after that.¬† (The current lockdown order in my area is until April 22, but there’s no way the COVID threat will have passed by then, so I expect it will be extended.¬† Or even if it isn’t, that work will not proceed as usual.)

Of course, I could and should spend some of that new free time writing.¬† But I have a backlog of books to read and video games to play, and my house is in desperate need of a thorough cleaning (and when I say cleaning, I mean junk-clearing, not deep-scrubbing…though it actually needs that, too), and I just suddenly developed this new desperate desire to create a really elaborate boxed room of an artist’s loft, complete with a small walk-out balcony with a small garden box.¬† I don’t even know why, but it’s practically a mania.¬† (Seriously, I spent half the afternoon trying to figure the best (and most cost-effective) method of getting two fully poseable 1/12 scale dolls to be the artist and her model.¬† Even went ahead and ordered them…though I don’t think I’ll end up using both of them for the artist and her model because I ordered two different types of dolls and they’re really, really, really incompatible.¬† Like, one of them is super-real and the other is anime-style.)¬† I don’t even have a place to put said box room at the moment, until I clean the house, for crying out loud!

Um…

Sorry, that’s not what I’m supposed to be talking about.¬† Although I do hope that having ordered the dolls (and their clothes and their wigs) will have satiated the urge enough to put the rest of it on the back burner at least until I can actually, you know, clear up the space where I’d put the dang thing.¬† Anyway, I’m hoping that my new writing project will energize me back into writing.

I know I mentioned a couple of times in past IWSG posts (which have sadly become almost the entirety of this blog at the moment) that I had written a fusion fan-fiction combining my favorite movie,¬†Velvet Goldmine, with Kenneth Branagh’s 1989 film of¬†Henry V, because Christian Bale was in both of them, and I was combining his roles in the fusion.¬† (Well, more like sticking his¬†Velvet Goldmine character into the life of his¬†Henry V character, but…same diff, right?)¬† Well, as I might have also mentioned (I’d check, but I spent so long on stupid online shopping for needless toys that it’s now dinner time and I promised myself I wouldn’t have dinner until I got this post written up for tomorrow morning), one of the other fusion ideas I had at the same time was to combine¬†Velvet Goldmine with the 1996 film of¬†Emma, because Ewan McGregor was in both of them.¬† And, honestly, the character of Frank Churchill combines pretty well with Curt Wild…aside from the one’s extreme heterosexuality and exceptionally privileged upbringing.¬† They even both sing. ūüėõ

Anyway, because¬†Emma also featured Toni Colette (who played the wife of the fellow rock star Curt Wild was having his passionate love affair with in Velvet Goldmine) as Harriet Smith, I felt I needed to read the book first to really get an understanding of the situation and characters and how to add not just one¬†Velvet Goldmine character, but two.¬† (The original fusion story was in response to a prompt requesting one of the¬†Velvet Goldmine romances be transferred into another film in one of the two actors’ massive and diverse filmographies.)¬† Because you can’t have a Jane Austen novel where one of the primary characters is left without a romance, right?¬† Although¬†technically I could just leave Harriet as Harriet despite her sharing Mandy’s actress, but that would be weird and no fun — but there is absolutely no way Mandy Slade would settle for Robert Martin.¬† Mandy can only marry Brian Slade.¬† (The fact that we don’t know Mandy’s maiden name will suit my story well; she’ll just become Amanda Smith.¬† (I figure the Regency era would probably not be terribly keen on the nickname “Mandy.”))

So, I’ve been reading the book — and quite astonished at just how much the movie left out (no wonder they decided to make a new film adaptation of it!) — and am now almost finished with it.¬† Scratch that, by the time you’re reading this, I¬†will be finished with it.¬† And I’ve made a lot of notes about where to add Arthur (Christian Bale’s character) — as the apprentice to Mr. Perry, Highbury’s apothecary — and of course Brian will become Brian, Lord Slade, famous (or infamous) for the poem “Childe Maxwell,” a decision I came to as soon as I realized I was going to add Brian to the mix, because there is no more suitable Regency equivalent for Brian Slade than Lord Byron.¬† (In fact, Lord Byron is pretty much the perfect comparison for Brian Slade, period.)¬† Such a poet — who can go anywhere and do whatever he pleases — is easy to insert, especially when the original story already has a flighty, wealthy young man of just the sort who might associate with a Byronic poet.¬† (Uh, except that Frank Churchill is not really intelligent enough for the real Lord Byron to have wanted to consort with him…)¬† I came to my decision about Arthur’s role pretty early on the course of reading the book (when I realized just how much of a fixture Mr. Perry would be at the Woodhouse home not necessarily during the action of the book, but in the day-to-day life outside the story), because it would give him good access to important events and characters without his being somewhere he would seem to be inappropriate, and also because it would make him someone so unimportant — insignificant, in fact! — that the characters from the book would pay him no heed, and go right on with their own lives whether he was there or not, because he would be to their mind barely more than a servant, and therefore invisible.¬† I was glad to see, as the book progressed, that it was going to be a really ideal position for him throughout, with the bonus that this way I could even include the drug addiction plot thread from the movie, because as an apprentice apothecary, Arthur could get laudanum for them without it seeming the least bit suspicious, which would give him some internal conflict as he began to realize that no, they weren’t suffering from terrible headaches, but were taking the opium in order to seek pleasure.

All in all, I’m pretty excited about the project, it should be a lot of fun, and yet I also feel like a total freaking hypocrite.¬† For two reasons, actually.¬† The first is pretty simple; quite some time ago, I posted a “free plot idea” on this blog, suggesting an Austen-like romance where it turned out that one or more of the handsome young gallants was secretly gay, and was having to lead a double life as he tried to find a love that would make him happy without exposing himself to the harsh punishments his era would have doled out.¬† I posted it because I felt there was no way I could write it myself, lacking both the subtlety and understanding of the human mind to write it well, and lacking the time to research it properly.¬† I haven’t increased dramatically in human understanding (if anything I might have gotten worse), and although I now have time to do research, I’m not likely to actually do so.¬† And actually I couldn’t really do very good research even if I wanted to, what with all the libraries in the area being closed for the duration.

The second reason I feel like a hypocrite is that sometime after I posted that plot idea, I went looking to see if there already was anything like that out there.¬† All I found (with a search which was probably not very thorough) was a book where someone had re-written¬†Pride and Prejudice to make it a gay romance.¬† I didn’t even look very closely to see if they had changed the sexuality of one or more characters, or their¬†sex.¬† I was too outraged that someone would wreak such changes on one of my favorite books to find out the particulars of how they had done it.¬† (Alas, if only I had known what someone was going to do to said book so soon after that!¬† Making it gay is at least a change for a good reason, and happy same-sex romances are always nice to have.)¬† But here I am, about to mutilate a different one of Jane Austen’s novels to make it gay.¬† (And while it’s not my favorite, I’m sure it’s someone’s favorite.)¬† Admittedly, I’m doing it in a weird and round-about way, and technically I’m actually trying to turn the movie gay, not the book, but I’ll be borrowing a¬†lot of events from the book that didn’t make it into the movie, because if I stick to just what’s in the movie, I’ll be limiting myself too much; the book’s events lend themselves to my ideas better.¬† (Though I will be watching the movie again before I start, to refresh my memory as to just which events were actually in it.¬† Also to revisit the entirely invented first introduction of Frank Churchill, because that was a freakin’ awesome character introduction.)

Of course, even as excited as I am about the project, it may not kickstart me back into writing properly again.¬† The weather’s getting warmer again, which means I can’t sit in my nice comfy leather chair for any length of time before the leather starts heating up and I get unbearably uncomfortable and have to sit on the floor, which is bad for my back and not particularly conducive to writing.¬† (Last summer I eventually got to the point of sitting in a nearby wooden chair with my computer on a folding table, and that worked pretty well.¬† But ironically it’s not warm enough for that yet, because my legs and especially my feet are as sensitive to cold as my back has become sensitive to the heat of the leather.)¬† And I might quickly find myself overwhelmed by trying to write for the period and the setting.¬† I don’t know.¬† There are so many question marks and uncertainties.

But these days, there are question marks and uncertainties about pretty much everything.

About yesterday…

Published November 29, 2019 by Iphis of Scyros

So, in my post yesterday, I said I only had a wordcount for the day of 440.

That turned out not to be true.

You see, after I posted that, I was poking around looking at stuff about this year’s Yuletide fanfiction exchange challenge.¬† Specificially, I was looking to see if there were any requests for¬†Velvet Goldmine stories that I could actually write as a treat, since I didn’t sign up to take part in the regular exchange.¬† (Even more specifically, I was hoping for requests that said more than “anything Curt/Arthur” which is kind of what they’ve said lately, which is not enough to give me any inspiration, because that’s pretty much all I write in that fandom already.)

And I found one where the requester suggested a fusion, combining¬†Velvet Goldmine with one of the other movies from the very diverse filmographies of Ewan McGregor or Christian Bale.¬† At first, I thought I was supposed to fuse three fandoms, one for each of them, but after realizing it was just¬†Velvet Goldmine and one other, I was like “hmm…” Read the rest of this entry →

Everything forgotten…

Published November 27, 2019 by Iphis of Scyros

Today I did another writing prompt using Pitchstorm, and it rapidly turned into¬†Velvet Goldmine fanfic.¬† I may (or may not) eventually post it to AO3, and if I do, the title of this post will be the title of the fic there.¬† It comes from the opening narration of the movie, which includes the line “While everything forgotten hangs in dark dreams of the past, ever threatening to return…”

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So…things change

Published November 25, 2019 by Iphis of Scyros

(What does not change is that I’m lousy at typing on my phone. That post title kept coming out as “thongs change”…to the point that I was tempted to keep it.)

I decided to just set Merlynne Jones and her crazy universe aside until I have some idea what the heck I’m trying to do with the story.

So today I decided to work on finishing up my long-stalled Doctor Who/Velvet Goldmine crossover fanfic. Which is not as bizarre as it sounds, because it’s an alternate version of the Velvet Goldmine characters where they’re pretty much exactly the same, personality- and career-wise, only they’re living in the far future on Earth colonies on the other side of the galaxy. And from there it’s just a standard Doctor Who story…except I did a mix-and-match with one original companion (Ace) and a new Doctor (13, naturally!).

Aaaaanyway, it had been stopped at 47,708 words, right before the finale, because I couldn’t quite figure out how to handle a small detail of same. Finished the fic at 50,143 words (after rereading the whole thing, mind you!) making today’s total 2,435 words, and November’s total 47,409.

Getting really close now!

Not sure what I’ll be writing tomorrow, but I’ll think of something…

andiamtotallynotintothis

Published November 24, 2019 by Iphis of Scyros

When you find yourself writing the above word, you know something’s wrong.

I know I’ve been delayed by a lot of stupid stuff on this year’s (unofficial) NaNo project, and much of it’s actually, you know, valid stuff that would get in the way of any writing project. Like the chair thing.

But this is…I don’t even know what this is.

I’m not gelling with this project, for whatever reason. I love the idea behind the world of it, but I just don’t have any feel (or feeling) for the characters, and I don’t even know who the baddie is or what his/her agenda is or anything.

So for tonight I’m calling it quits at a measly 201 words written (for 44,974 total so far) and doing something I should have done on Thursday, since the universe was clearly telling me I should.

That, of course, is to watch Velvet Goldmine.

See, on Thursday, I went to see Ford v. Ferrari. Which stars Christian Bale. And there was a trailer in front of it for a new movie directed by Todd Haynes. The only way the universe could have been more obvious about it would be if there had also been a trailer for Birds of Prey in front of it, too. (I wish there had been; I don’t go looking for trailers online, so I haven’t seen any trailers for it yet. Not that I want to see Ewan as a bad guy (like, ever), but I do hope the movie will be good, ’cause Harley’s a great character I’m really fond of…when she’s written well…)

If everything I just said sounds like nonsense, then click on the Velvet Goldmine tag on this post (I’m on the phone app right now and can’t figure out how to do links to old posts) and find my Netflix review of it, and then all will make sense. ūüėČ

Anyway, I hope watching my favorite movie will reenergize my writing juices (ew, that sounds gross), and that tomorrow I’ll get plenty of writing done. Even if it’s on some other project.

IWSG – Genre

Published February 7, 2018 by Iphis of Scyros

(Pre-writing to make sure I don’t forget!)

My writing life has been a bit slow of late, so I don’t have any fresh…well,¬†anything, really…to talk about, so I’ll just stick to the optional question for the month:

February 7 question – What do you love about the genre you write in most often?

It’s sort of an awkward question for me right now, because lately (like, for the last year and a half) what I’ve been writing has been fanfiction.¬† And I’m not sure if that counts as a genre.¬† (I’m fairly sure it¬†doesn’t, regardless of NaNo categories.)¬† So what genre¬†have I been writing in?¬† I guess it’s either the catch-all “fiction”, romance or…is there such a genre as “recent historical fiction”?¬† Or rather, “recent alternate history” fiction?¬† Because the movie I’ve been writing fanfic of is set in 1984, but it’s not the real 1984, as it’s a bit more dystopian (without going full-on Orwell), and I have a tendency to play up the dystopian angle, though not enough to make it a work of dystopian fiction.

I suppose, for the sake of argument, I’ll pretend that “recent alternate history” is a genre.

I have to admit that I have a lot of fun with that, playing around with the early ’80s, not only in revisiting the decade (though the movie’s 1984 is also a lot less colorful than the 1980s I remember (admittedly, I was only 9 in 1984)) but also playing around with all sorts of things we all know came after.¬† For example, in one I wrote a while back, the reporter who’s one of the central characters of the movie managed to write a story that broke the fictional president’s reign of terror.¬† (Okay, okay, “reign of terror” is an exaggeration, but…for cryin’ out loud, there’s a scene in the movie where there are three police-types standing on the streets of New York with freakin’ assault rifles, and everyone ignores them, because that’s their “normal.”)¬† Because that happened about 1986 or so, I figured that made a safe bet that 1988’s election would go differently, and I could make a passing reference to “President Dukakis” in a scene that took place around 1990 or 1991.¬† (Admittedly, there’s no real reason to assume Dukakis would still have gotten the Democratic nomination in such a different 1988 primary race, but I figured “why not?”¬† Considering it was just a single passing reference, I didn’t see any reason to research the other contenders for the nomination to decide if someone else would have been more likely in the atmosphere left behind by a president whose corruption caused his own self-destruction.)

Still, as much as I love doing stuff like that, I guess that’s all secondary to the romance…which is more than a little weird, considering that I’m aromantic and don’t actually like romance as a genre.¬† It’s just that Curt and Arthur are so perfect together and I can’t help wanting to write about them somehow finding a happy ending together, despite their coming from such different worlds!¬† (Of course, the romance is the weakest angle of my already weak writing, what with having zero experience (not to mention being female), but…well, I’ve come to understand a few of the things I do a lot that are most absurd, and I plan not to do them anymore, and hopefully I can even excise them from some of my unposted works that are still waiting for editing, so that’s something, anyway.)

Prior to getting addicted to¬†Velvet Goldmine fanfic, I used to write mostly various types of fantasy.¬† For¬†that, it’s easy to say what I loved:¬† getting to utterly ignore reality, and create a new set of rules for my little fictional world to follow.¬† Admittedly, I frequently depended on pre-existing rule sets (like the set of novel-length works set in the Heroic Age of Greece, starring the offspring of three of the most important and famous of the Greeks who fought at Troy) but I still had more ability to tweak reality to suit me, and as long as I was consistent in that tweaking throughout the work, it was okay, you know?

Getting to create a whole new world, even if it’s only a tiny bit different from reality, is definitely my favorite part of writing all around.¬† I lack the descriptive ability to make others fully grasp what I’ve imagined for my fictional worlds, but my writing is pretty much just for me, anyway.¬† (I’ve only twice tried to actually publish anything, both times quite abortively.¬† I’m going to do a half-hearted self-epub of this past November’s NaNo once I’ve polished it up, but for very different reasons than one normally publishes anything.)

Book Reports: Oscar Wilde and Velvet Goldmine

Published July 22, 2017 by Iphis of Scyros

Several reports at once here. ¬†Unfortunately, I couldn’t find the edition of The Complete Works of Oscar Wilde that I’ve got on Goodreads, so here’s the closest cover I¬†could find.

The one I have is a Barnes & Noble edition from 1994, long before they were doing the leatherbound thing. ¬†(Which I found at a local used store.) ¬†It’s got this photo on the cover, but a bit smaller, and tinted slightly blue. ¬†And despite that it calls itself “Complete” it isn’t¬†really¬†complete. ¬†The things most people want to read are all there —¬†Dorian Gray, the plays, and the short stories — and there’s a lot of poetry, though I haven’t bothered to look up if it’s¬†all the poetry. ¬†(And it claims to have an introduction by George Bernard Shaw, but what it actually has is a letter from him to an early Wilde biographer recounting his own memories of Oscar Wilde. ¬†Which is far from being an introduction in any standard sense. ¬†It was interesting stuff (and in one place wonderfully useful to me) but not an introduction.) ¬†But there are only a handful of letters and essays. ¬†Which, for most people, is probably not much loss, because most people are likely to only want the fiction, whether in prose or play form.

And no, I haven’t read the entire thing cover to cover. ¬†It’s about 1200 pages, so that’s a lot of reading. ¬†But I have some reports on the individual pieces I¬†have read. ¬†(And I plan to read more of the pieces later.) Read the rest of this entry →

IWSG – Something’s shifted

Published April 5, 2017 by Iphis of Scyros

I’m not quite sure what, but something is just a little off from what it had been.

I mean, some of it’s the same. ¬†I’ve been obsessed with writing fanfic for¬†Velvet Goldmine since July’s CampNaNo session, and that hasn’t changed (despite coming up with what feels like a really good idea for an original novel series in the meantime), but the stuff I’ve been writing has been. ¬†I’m not sure if that’s a maturation of my interest, a reaction to the real world, a suggestion that maybe I’m starting to tire of it, or what, but it’s kind of been weirding me out a little.

So, when I started, it was mostly just “how can I get my two favorite characters to hook up and have their happily ever after?” ¬†(Because I am, at heart, a very shallow person who would prefer to live in a fairy tale world. ¬†Especially since this one sucks.) ¬†Of course, there was usually some situation going on outside their relationship that needed resolving, often relating to the reporter managing somehow to expose the conspiracy behind the scenes of the 1984 section of the film. ¬†Now, it’s not like those elements have gone away, of course. ¬†Getting them together is still the primary goal of almost every one of my fics. ¬†(There have been a couple of really short ones that didn’t do that at all.) ¬†Or rather, I should say that it¬†starts out as a primary goal. ¬†Lately they’ve been twisting and going strange (and dark) places I didn’t intend as I started writing them.

Take, for example, the one I’m about 75% finished with right now. ¬†The idea was to take the surveillance the rock star is under in the movie (almost certainly a temporary measure in canon) and imagine it carried further, where he’s under an unknown amount of constant surveillance, preventing them from being able to simply start dating like a normal couple. ¬†So what happens is that he knows there’s a wiretap on his phone line (I never had him explain how he knows that, though), and he assumes he’s also under scrutiny whenever he goes to public places, though he isn’t quite sure¬†how much scrutiny. ¬†The premise, therefore, was that they can only get together in his apartment, on weekends, and have a very awkward relationship until they finally decide to leave the country to get away from those surveilling them. ¬†It was supposed to be the usual romantic fluff. ¬†Somehow it’s turned into a festival of paranoia and failure to communicate. ¬†They’re both totally convinced the other one doesn’t have any genuine feelings for them, and that whatever they have will be ended at any second. ¬†And at this point, they’ve already moved to London together, but they’re still thinking that way. ¬†(Okay, actually, as of Sunday night, the rock star is starting to believe the reporter really does love him, because the reporter was about the write the expos√© that the rock star thought was his only goal in the relationship, but then changed his mind and decided not to write it, giving three reasons, one of which being that it would bring their relationship under too much harsh scrutiny. ¬†But the reporter is more convinced than ever that he’s entirely unloved.) ¬†I’m really not sure how that happened. ¬†The weird thing is that while it’s not entirely¬†in character for them to be so paranoid, it’s not entirely¬†out of character, either.

In another one, I realized I’d written myself into a situation where they had to break up for about six months in the middle of the piece. ¬†That was odd, too, but it feels a bit more natural. ¬†(In fact, that one may be my favorite I’ve written so far.) ¬†In another, my decision to play around with the idea of the reporter’s brother turning up in the employ of the government agency that’s behind the conspiracy turned¬†really dark. ¬†Like, his brother ordered him beaten up and killed. ¬†Thankfully, rescue arrived before the killing part could happen, but the poor reporter spent the whole rest of the story covered in bruises. ¬†Again, very odd. ¬†(Especially since I hate real world-style violence (fantasy violence is a different matter), and the movie has pretty much zero violence in it.) ¬†And yes, I have a whole lot of fics for this movie by now. ¬†(Most of which are only half-edited, and therefore haven’t even been posted to AO3 yet. ¬†I have to take it a bit slow on the posting, anyway; I don’t want to have two of my pieces right next to each other in the chronological posting list if I can avoid it, because it just looks bad. ¬†(I wasn’t thinking about that at first, so early on, there are places where I have three in a row, and it makes me cringe.) ¬†Which is annoying, ’cause I just finished posting something, and now I have to wait for someone else to post something before I can put up anything else. ¬†Especially annoying because someone posted something the day before I put up the final chapter. ¬†So if they’d just waited one more day before posting…!)

Anyway, long story short, I feel like my writing’s getting away from me a bit. ¬†Maybe I’m just stressed out from work and school and having been sick for the entire month of March. ¬†(Which is when I wrote all of that still-unfinished piece, btw.) ¬†If it’s not stress, I’m not sure what the change indicates, or if it’s anything I can — or even should — try to fix. ¬†(After all, these darker pieces are definitely better than the light fluffy ones I started out with, so maybe I shouldn’t be complaining.)


Addressing the suggested question for this month, about using April A-to-Z to publicize a novel, well, I’ve never published anything, but if I do write that original series I mentioned above, and if I decide to self-pub it as I mentioned in an earlier post, maybe I should think about doing that. ¬†Might be an interesting thing to use April A-to-Z for, if one was careful to be interesting and not make it just boring, shameless advertising. ¬†(Sadly, I’m not doing the challenge this year, unlike the past two years. ¬†I meant to spend all year getting ready for it, another nice, research-intensive world mythology theme, but…I kept putting it off for one reason or another, and never got the research completed. ¬†And I have a lot of work to do this month for school, so…school work is always more important than blogging, and therefore I just can’t do the challenge the way I want to. ¬†And I’d rather not do it than to do a half-assed job of it.)

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